I know that my life appears to be a mix between a Ringling Bros’ circus act and a Latin Soap Opera.
[ Lame housewife. Exhausted mom. Stressed student. Poor woman.]
All the above are true and to be honest, it’s still a vague description of what my life looks like. But settle down!!! I’m not chiming in the sad music or bringing out the tissue box.
I’m just calling it as it is. MY LIFE IS CRAZY & I’M A MESS. There’s no shame in admitting it. I’ve said it before, and I’ll continue to say it: I’m no show-pony. My life is far from the “dream life” and since I’ve recognized it, I choose to embrace it (crazy and all) and I will ride this crazy train till things work themselves out.
I’m meant to be here in. Right now. For these very moments.
But in order to move in a positive direction, I need to do some personal house cleaning! Sometimes we just need to do that – an emotional regurgitation of all of our flaws and things that are poisoning us.
Let me go first!
Anger, fear, stress, resentment, doubt, exhaustion, being uptight, selfish, control-hungry, rude…I would keep going, but it’s becoming embarrassing and I’m sure you get the idea.
According to Webster’s Dictionary (sorry it’s the student in me that loves definitions), the word BUT is a conjunction word and one of the definitions that stood out to me was:
Used to introduce a statement that adds something to a previous statement and usually contrasts with it in some way.
These two simple words are revolutionary!!! You know why? Well I’ll tell you. It’s because no matter what you put in front of it, God is still greater.
Ephesians 2:4-5: But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ, by grace you have been saved
My prayer for myself is that God may continue to add Himself to the narrative of this little story of mine and remind me that in light of Him, regardless of who I am and all my flaws, He can bring contrast into my life: Beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning and the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness (Isaiah 61:3). His grace IS sufficient for my life and as I walk through this crazy life of mine I need to remember to always end my complaints with …BUT GOD can do extraordinary things in the midst of this…