So I’m continuing in self analysis and truly looking for something that I’m thankful for outside of the generic response of “family & friends”. Of course those things are of utmost value, but I’ve been trying to think of things a little more specific.
So here it is.
Unconventional Blessing #3: Being a student mom
If I had a nickel for every time somebody told me I was crazy for being a student mom, I would be able to pay off all of my school debt and probably a house too!
I don’t write too much about being a student, mostly because it’s hard to condense my entire whirlwind experience into a small post (because it’s been 9 years off and on in the making). My journey as a student has had major ups and downs. If I could pick between going through natural labor and being a student mom, I would pick natural labor over and over (I’ve done it twice, so I know that I’m talking about). School with kids is no joke!
I could tell you about all the crazy, chaotic and stressful experiences I’ve had before getting to the point I am at now, but that my friend is material I may just save for a book I need to write after graduating because it’s just way too much for one blog!
My choice to be a student is exactly that – a choice. At any time I could quit and be done. Unfortunately, my mother didn’t raise me to be a quitter so I’m kinda committed to this thing till the end. Truth is, I love what I am doing.
When I started back as a student in 2011, I cam in as pre-nursing student. However, after re-evaluating my life I changed majors earlier this year and I’m expected to gradate Fall 2016 as a public health major. I couldn’t be more excited. Best move I have ever made!
Originally going back to school, I thought being a student mom was a major disadvantage! I mean, all these young kids had all the time on their hands to study and work on homework. I did not/do not have that luxury. I had to work twice/triple as hard to keep up because between having been out of school for a while and managing a toddler I spent most days second guessing myself and feeling like a complete idiot.
However, it took some time, but I realized that I actually have an advantage, so to speak. You see, unlike these young kids blowing their parents budget not knowing what they want to do, I came in on my own dime and focused knowing I was on a mission. Having my girls gives me focus and motivation to not only stay in school, but to succeed while in it.
So many times in my life I have lied to myself saying that something was impossible and I wouldn’t be able to get it done. I had to remember that everything of value and of worth is not easily come by, so if I truly wanted it I couldn’t quit just because it was too hard. Throughout my entire schooling, God has opened doors that I felt unworthy of having opened and because of it I know without doubt that I am exactly where I need to be, even if others think I’m crazy.
But He said, “The things which are impossible with men are possible with God.” Luke 18:27
I have a task that has become bigger than me, which is to influence how special needs families are treated and making sure that every child and adult has every chance to thrive in this world. Like I said, I’m in school by choice, not by force. So when I look at my homework, I don’t see a ball and chain anymore. I see an opportunity to get a hold of instruments to cultivate for my tool box. Without my girls, I don’t know if I would have been this motivated and probably would have quit a long time ago. But this mama has plans to reach the sky and take my family with me!